okelay

Stargate Atlantis
pg-13
spoilers for 'the real world' and 'common ground'
john/elizabeth
angst, hurt/comfort,some romance



"I look at you, and smile because i'm fine"

Elizabeth hasn't seen John all day. he's not at the mess at dinner.
finally giving in, she goes looking for him.
she finds him at a balcony. not their balcony, but a much secluded one. where she knows he likes to come and think.
he's standing with his back to the door, leaning over the railing,looking down.
she walks up to him. "John?" she asks, softly, trying to shake him off his thoughts.
a few seconds pass and he turns to her.
"lizabeth?" he says, confused "what you doin' here?"
she offers him a smile. "I ... i came to check on you"
"I'm ok, liz, don't worry about me."
she decides, this once, to let the dreaded nickname slide
"Why not?" she asks instead "You always do. and i'm the leader,it's my job"
he smirks."and you one hell of a job. they oughta give you a nobel"
she chuckles quietly. "i doubt it"
he remains quiet, not quite sure what to say to calm her nerves that won't sound like a complete lie.
"you know.."she starts,slowly "i realized something today. i never said thank you.
you saved my life with the nanogenes and i never said anything.
all i did was leave you to die. fed upon by a wraith."
she slid down to the floor as she spoke, not daring to look at him.
"elizabeth... you did what you had to do. it was the right choice. i know you feel guilty but i'm here, i'm alive. it all worked out. this time,everybody lived"
he took her hand as he talked and she leaned her on his shoulder. she needed the assurance of his physical presence. it wasn't dream.
"it gets harder every time." she says. "not letting you go saved my life and now i can't not do it"
he looks down, still holding her hand "i know" he states
"you never told me what happened. what did you see?"
she bites her lip.
"are you sure you want to know?"
"i am. please tell me"
she moves closer to him, looking for a comfortable posicion, before starting her story
"i was back on Earth..."

#99 All i know is that i’m lost without you, how am i gonna be strong without you, i need you by my side

You’re not dead. That i know. But you’re not here either.
And everyday you’re missing my faith suffers a little.
I know you’ll come back, you always do.
But i can’t seem to shut up that little voice that says “but what if you don’t?”
What would i do? I can’t run this city alone!
And what’s worse, i’d probably have to stand some hard ass military guy like Caldwell or worse.
That can’t happen. You have to comeback. I miss you.
Everyone does. Even the city.

You finally told me about your family. You promised me we’d visit them on our next trip to Earth. I know you, John.
You keep your promises.
And you promised me to comeback in one piece.
I’m sure you left instructions with Lorne and others in case your didn’t came back but they’ll be useless.
It’s not your protection i need.
It’s you.

Stargate Atlantis
Rodney Mckay.

this should not be misread a sign that i like rodney. he just fitted better than john.

He knows he screws up often. Nobody ever ceases to remind him.
Most of the time, he doesn’t mind. He makes jokes,too.
But every now and then he’d like to hear “good work”
Instead of something along the lines of “are you sure you know what you’re doing?”

He knows he’s not a hero. Or superman. Nobody looks up to him.
The athosian kids have never seen him as a role model.
He knows he’s a genius. He also knows it’s the only reason he’s still around. If it weren’t for his brain, he wouldn’t have lasted 48 hours on this job.

That’s why sometimes,he wants to know he’s liked for who he is, not what he does.